A Bit More About Me

A Bit More About Me.

So this is my story. It's not that interesting, I didn't have much drama or anything like that but I still thought I would share.

 

I think I've always known that I am gay.

I went through primary and intermediate school having crushes on girls and having girl friends, but when I look back I feel more like they were just glorified friendships. I mean I was like 10-14 when this was taking place to me it's just usual behaviour for somebody that age. I had a lot of girl friends back then and I have a lot now. I'm always surrounded by girls, and that's the way I like it. I actually think it's hilarious when people see me with my girl friends and say 'skuxx' I think it's brilliant!

 

I came out when I was 15.

 

I had a crush on a guy who was a couple of years older then me, so cute, smart and blonde. I love Blonde hair. I was totally crazy back then and ended up becoming his friend somehow. We are still friends now surprisingly. I came out by telling my best friend at the time, and she was fine with it.

 

Thank god!

 

After that I slowly started to tell my friends and once my core group knew I felt a lot better. One person wasn't so accepting...

 

Lets call him N...

 

N and I had an interesting friendship and it's one that hasn't continued on through the years. When I told him I was gay we were in my friends bedroom and he instantly moved across to the door and sat away from the bed where we were. Now I wasn't that bothered to be honest because I knew to expect this from people. After a while our friend group started to stretch out and I haven't talked to him or a lot of the others in ages. I think my friends now are a much better group to be around anyway but that's another story .

 

Here is the hardest part for me...Telling the parents....Or I guess in my case it's parent... So I look back now and I'm like "Why didn't I just tell my Mum straight up!?" For those who don't know, my Mum is a lesbian so I doubt this would of been a shock to her, I'm also sure she probably had it figured out. I can't remember what the date or day or time was when I told my Mum I just remember waking up to a text from somebody I wont name and in the text they called me a 'Faggot' and asked if I had told my Mum yet, I was so freaked out thinking this person might tell that I sent a text around to my friends and a few of us got together to make a plan. The plan was to tell my Mum and distract the other person so we set off to it. We got to my Mums work and I went out the back and found her, my best friend was with me and I just remember saying "Mum I've got something to tell you...I LIKE GUYS"

 

And boom the pressure was gone.

 

My Mum was fine with it, as I should have figured! I am so lucky to have an accepting group of people in my life; I wish it was like that for more people.

 

After that everything was fine at home and in my social life, sure there was still the usual drama – but what teenager doesn't have drama!? 

 

One drama was when I stopped hanging out with my old friends and made my new group, my old friends were telling people that I wasn't even gay and it was just a lie to get with girls...Hahahaha! I'm sorry but 1) How does that even work? and

2) Thanks for giving me more attention it's good for my ego.

 

Life is always going to have those people that try and bring you down whether you're Gay, Straight, Bi, Transgender, Black, White anything you can think of – there is always going to be someone trying to stop you.

 

I left High School because things were difficult, but I made it through Level 1 and then moved onto Polytech where life was even easier. I now having amazing friends as I mentioned in my first post, I am a part of a youth group called Same Difference and I've had a few relationships. which have all been good. I know I've had it a lot easier then a lot of people out there but still I thought I would share my story with you.

 

So that's my coming out story, I know I didn't go full into detail but then this post might just end up being extremely long and nobody wants to read that! If you have any questions feel free to comment them! .

- Tohora x.

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